Not long ago, I was talking to God about my quiet time. I relish the time I get to spend with God. But it always seems like there are other things that need my attention first. For example; the kids, the animals (darn it, why can’t they get their own food?), cooking, cleaning, the phone is ringing, grocery shopping, sleep, etc. The list could go on right? Can I get an AMEN?
A few days ago, I was sitting on our futon couch in the homeschool room, reading the Bible. Ahhhh yes… quiet time with God. Then my 1 year old woke up. Arg…there goes quiet time. Because seriously, who can have quiet time with a little one running around and climbing all over you? In that moment I felt God saying to me, “Just be. Read if you can, pray if you can. I’m listening no matter what. Your sentences may be broken or interrupted. It may take you 20 minutes to read one verse. But just focus on being with me. I’m not going anywhere and besides, I love children. Let them see their mommy spending time with me. I gave you these precious children and I understand the season you are in right now. So just be…”
Sigh…Thank you Lord. Why did I think that He wouldn’t understand? Why did I think that He expects me to be doing a full blown Bible study or to be journaling in my beautiful journal Bible? He just wants my heart. He wants my heart to be willing and overjoyed to spend time with Him. Yes, of course, I feel so good when I get uninterrupted time with Him. I am in the process right now of making a prayer closet so that I do have a place to escape to when I can. But for the times when I can’t…and there are many…I will just sit in His presence, trying to read the Bible or pray with my little one in my lap or chasing him around the house.
Spending time in His presence has to be a priority. My days go so much better when I’ve given the day to Him. But honestly, getting up an hour early is just not happening these days! EVERY MINUTE of sleep is necessary for helping this mama act like a normal, functioning adult throughout the day! So sometimes my time with Him is breathing quick prayers throughout the day. Things like; I give this day and everything it holds to you Lord or My children are driving me CRAZY, please give me patience! Sometimes while cleaning the kitchen or folding laundry, I will watch/listen to a study on rightnowmedia.org. I may have to keep listening over and over again until I hear the whole thing, but I’ll take it!
The point is, this life will not always look perfect! Whenever I see posts on social media that talk about Bible study or quiet times, there is ALWAYS a picture of a Bible, a notebook, and a cup of coffee. Nice, huh? That almost NEVER happens for me! I usually have my Bible in one room and my coffee in the microwave because I”m heating it up for the umpteenth time! But oh gosh, if we waited until life was perfect, NOTHING would get done and we would miss out on sooooo much!
So…embrace those moments of short but meaningful prayers, whispered and claimed verses, repeated podcasts, one-verse readings, messy buns, forgotten coffee and just being in God’s presence. One day your kids will all be grown up and you’ll find that your quiet times may just feel…too quiet?
What are your thoughts? Have you found ways to “just be” while caring for your little ones?
Be still, and know that I am God. (Psalm 46:10)